the longest period of time today when i haven't been crying is 1-4 hour. because i cried after lunch, and after school. and ever since after school there's been about an hour all together when i haven't cried.

i feel like i did last year.

abandoned. again.

and no matter how many people tell me, and how many times they tell me, i still see this as my fault entirely.

i deleted all my text messges....even the ones i've saved since the 18th of January. What's the point in reading them again, when they mean absolutely nothing now?