extremely good

I don't think I've felt this amazing in a long time. Like this weight has been lifted off of me. I'm over him, and I love it.
I've realized that we're one of those people that is either in a relationship, or we just can't really make it as friends. That's how it's been lately, at least. I tried, I really did. But he was just an ass to me. Which made me be a "bitch" to him. So now it's just like what's the point? What's the point in trying to throw popcorn at me or trying to get other people to say things for you to me, when all you're going to do is be a douche? If you really want my attention, stop being such an ass, maybe grow some balls. You're the one that said you wanted to be friends, despite how you hurt me. How you wanted me to be there for you when you needed. Well, I tried, but you have to too.
But I am excellent. Only problem is loneliness, but I get over that quickly. I hope I'm not jinxing this, but really......I'm extremely good.

bus

I feel like I've just been hit by a bus. One of those big buses....Coach buses...with the built in toilets. Right in the gut. It just aimed for me.
This shouldn't bother me...okay, maybe it should. So it does. The public pictures? they're gross. I mean...honestly I look down upon those who post pictures of them making out with someone else...i don't mind the whole cheek kiss thing...but it's all about having some type of tact. And that was just a total punch to my stomach.
and so was the fact that he thinks he has never been an asshole to me....that's bullshit. I just have to draw the line there. I'm tired of not being respected....from friends and otherwise.

and i thought I wasn't going to smoke a cigarette today...guess I was wrong. I have smoked one for the past three days....guess it's a spring break thing.

needs

I'm good. Really, I am. It's surprising, but I think I'm going to be okay.
I've realized now that I need somebody who will actually respect me and love me back.
So until that day comes I'll just live my life :)