update much?

not really.
I don't know what to say right now. I have a lot more thoughts.

summer flings

I've had like 3 so far.
Most recent: the Georgian.
:)
I told you...Summer of Love '09 baby

the boy of my dreams.

Seriously. I met him. It's awesome. And I miss him a lot :(
I hate how he lives in Colorado.

Even though

he used to be my best friend, and my first true love, and the person I wanted to tell everything to, when I received his everything-but-cheerful Facebook message, I felt absolutely relieved. Okay, that's an overstatement. I felt pissed at first. But you know what? I'm happy. I'm happy we've just decided to not even communicate anymore. I mean obviously, he thinks I told his girlfriend. But that's not true. Guys (especially him) don't realize that girls are actually smart. Hear that? Girls are intelligent. We can put two and two together. We can tell when you are lying, we can tell when you are cheating, and we can definitely tell when you are being an asshole. Though, some of us are attracted to assholes, it takes a crap load of unnecessary drama to finally come to the revelation that we don't need you, we can deal with ourselves, and we don't deserve the bullshit you put us through for months or even years.
So this being said, I am blissful. Life couldn't be better. Well, if Madison were still my friend, it would definitely be better. But other than that, everything is good (*knock on wood0). I'm going to ITF next week with some of the coolest friends I have, and I'm going to join with hundreds of other students around the country that share my passion: theatre.
It's scary to think that I'm auditioning for colleges. Sometimes I still think that I'm ten years old just dreaming about going to college. But now it's almost here.....I mean hey, I still have one more year. But my senior year will probably go the fastest out of all my high school terms. Where has the time gone?
I know I've said this a million times, but this time I know that I mean it about 150%: I am over him. I love my life. And I can finally move on. He's a piece of crap of a boyfriend, and I can definitely do better.
♥summer '09 :)

expansion of thoughts

Let me start off by saying that out of all my friends, I probably respect Kevin's opinion the most. This is because of his maturity, experience, and his understanding of me and my complications.
So the minute when I told him the situation, and his response was "that's stupid. That's not your fault" I could breathe easy. Seriously, you don't understand the relief I felt when Kevin justified my thoughts and everyone else's.

Okay, I really need to work on my portfolio.
geez I can't believe I'm auditioning for colleges next week.
Scary stuff.

Jank

Let me give you a run-down of probably the jankiest weekend of my life.
It all started on Saturday night.....

I went to Claire's house prepared to spend the night and probably party it up. We ended up going to some sketch kid's house with all these other sketch kids. They all pretty much went to the Academy. We only went because she wanted to trip. It was a pool party. I then discovered that the host was a dealer and has dealt to a few people I know. So, I bought a gram. Then continued to smoke a bowl with my best friend and the dealer.
We then continued to Sexy's where Claire dropped me off so she could go to a grad party where Keegs was and I smoked from a chillum with Bams, Sex and G. And then sat around the porch with G and had a heart to heart while smoking a Black 'n Mild. Claire returned with Keegs and we smoked a hybrid bowl of three different types of weed. Then the girls had to depart and we stopped by the BK lounge cuz I had the munchies bad. And then went home to fall asleep. Where I then had a dream that Bams had two little indian brothers and the eldest, Ratash, died.
Weirdest fucking dream of my life.

Sunday was normal. I guess. I was a little out of it. But later that I night I went to see The Hangover with Adam. We held hands. And kissed. It was refreshing. I guess. Then we smoked a grape cigar in the parking lot of Ronnie's. Like I said, jankiest weekend of my life.

Yet is was still in my top ten weekends of all time.

♥Summer '09.
I want to expand on other things but I will do that later.

so...

I'm pretty sure everybody in France hates me right now.
Yet everyone in the states agrees with me.
This situation is confusing and stupid and I have nothing to do with it.
What am I going to do when Claire leaves?
Luckily, here is this week's time line:
Hill comes back on Sunday.
Claire leaves on Monday.
French kids come back on Thursday.
I leave early Friday morning.

So any fights I will have will either be through texting, or not until July. Hopefully, there won't be any. But there most likely will be. i hope I don't lose my best friend because I love her. This whole thing is stupid.

♥