indecisive

This is how I am feeling as of lately. About pretty much every aspect of my life.

i believe in love.

i believe in intuition.
i believe in second chances.
and maybe third and fourths.
i believe in open minds.

gay guys are the best to grind with

can i just say that, blatantly? they're fantastic. haha no, in all seriousness i'm fairly sure i had the best 4 days of my life.
i'm frustrated right now because my pictures aren't loading on facebook.

currently listening to: Just Dance by Lady Gaga

♥ A Fine Frenzy

My current musical obsession [of the day] is A Fine Frenzy. Alison's lyrics and harmonious mixtures are absolutely perfect. I've listened to this song a million times tonight:

Near to You lyrics:

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading suddelly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.

With a new year...

...comes new ideas, new experiences.
New hopes, loves, laughs, memories, friends, fights, confusions, and music.

I found my blog a little drab, so I changed it up a little. Deleting all 95 aggressive, and quite negative posts was kind of therapeutic I think .

Tonight, I start a new diary.

Hopefully, a lot more interesting than it used to be :)



Currently listening to: No Cars Go by the Arcade Fire